Somebody Hold Me...

An episode of Scrubs made me cry again. I've lost count of how many times thats happened. Happy tears sad tears,and ocasionally both at the same time. i was glad as can be when i read that NBC had decided to pick up the show for another season. But as often happens the tears brought on a need for music. Old music. Baba O Riely, and Won't get fooled again by the who got me up and bopping around in short order , and longing for my drums. Sigh... Stage lights. The bass thumping in my chest. Drunk girls,and long neck beers


I followed that up with Jackson Browne's "For Everyman" cd. And the tears came back. So many incredibly good songs on one cd!!! And every one of them attached to a memory. Faded dreams.Old girlfriends. People that i will never see again. Some have moved away. some have become crack heads. Some are still here but so changed by the passage of time they no longer fit the memories.

hello Jacki n Johnny. Phil and Steve. Jim beasley. Roger, and Jim Finnly. Gary Mackie I love you man. We put so many miles behind us in those big old trucks. Larry Smith ,Richard ,David, and Julia Thompson. Julia.....my first kiss. My finest hour.


Mickey,Floyd,Mike St. Leon, and Ron "jet" Wilson. High school. The Zig Zag Free Press. Mr Norwood, And Coach Holloway...You were both right I apologise.

Darkness has fallen, my "mood " is deep, and blue. Crosby-Nash is playing. Deep music for deep thoughts. Bob Baker. I saved you for last. I'm crying Bob. It's been three years since you passed ,and I miss you every day. I think of you all the time. We hunted. We camped. We played wrote and made music. We partyed till the sun came up, and then made a beer run. We played air guitars ,and took it very seriously. WE played army Bob. Grown men in our 30s out in the woods, and fields with unloaded real guns playing army. I never had to wear a mask with you. Never said i 'm sorry. never had to explain anything. You taught me to sing.

Relatively speaking. Anna. My sister my friend. I would never have survived monterey without you. We were the niles, and Fraser of Monterey Tennessee. A two person island of culture in a sea of 1960s redneck....."Ah look at all the loney people.

You were Paul, and i was John. You were Mickey Dolenz, and I was Davey jones. You were spock (ofcourse), and I had to be kirk so I could run the game. I will never hear "A Day in the life" without remembering the birds. Daylight again.

FAST FORWARD....STOP!!!! Wow this could go on all night. 55 years people ,places ,and things, passing in a multi colored blur of sound ,and emotion. All triggered by a paticularly good episode of Scrubs. Oh Bob ,There is your favorite Beatle song......

C'est la vie